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Dec. 2nd, 2009 | 10:57 am

every new challenge comes a learning experience.
the water pulls you down but you tread for dear life.
swallow murky water in the process.
surface a stronger person.

too much though, the stream turned into a river.
river turned into the ocean.
im struggling, drowning, swallowing too much.
no more strength to tread, barely hanging on. this better be the end.
before i really give in. before the current pulls me away.

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Dec. 1st, 2009 | 10:55 pm

night falls.
scary

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Nov. 30th, 2009 | 11:25 pm

honestly, your crazy

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Nov. 28th, 2009 | 10:44 pm

life can be so simple, but we'r humans.
humans are but simple.

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Nov. 20th, 2009 | 01:23 pm

here comes the next battle.
sarah, harden the fuck up

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Nov. 18th, 2009 | 01:56 pm




the rise after a hard fall brings you to a better place.

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Nov. 16th, 2009 | 01:25 pm


dear all,

im sorry for making each worry. i'll be fine. im picking the pieces up. i'm back in the game.


iv not given up because i dont want to be a burden.
im looking ahead now. fixing my life. everyone has the rights and reason to live. theres no death note.
because "life is a rollercoaster". I thought that the rollercoasters wont stop. but it will.

cheers to life.


gwen,dhini and daryl. i put the three of you, especially, in such a difficult situation. im sorry. right from the bottom of my heart. i wont be the foolish human i was the past 2 days,

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Nov. 15th, 2009 | 05:08 pm

heres to rediscovering life. Because now i know that life is held on by a thin string. Breaking it is not hard. But noone should. Sarahlin, do not give up on life.

Heres my battlefield. I will cherish this fight.

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Nov. 11th, 2009 | 11:38 am


the queasy feeling up to my throat. any minute, any second, new decisions.
once a person acts on a decision, changes takes place.
and i dont think i can take changes well. but im learning. enough.
i want to see how things settle. i want to see genuine smiles.
maybe thats why i chose to sleep.

iv learnt a lot about myself lately. 
and im really, really exhausted. but im not giving up. not now, not soon.

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movies

Nov. 4th, 2009 | 11:13 am


Sarah says:

i want to watch a movie that can make me cry

gwen says:

whatthefuckkk

hahhaha

i don't

i hate watching sad movies

Sarah says:

hahaha i wanna sit there and cry till my mascara runs

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Nov. 4th, 2009 | 08:58 am

Its mid week wednesday now. Monotonous facilitator going on and on.
This week has past so fast. Less drama, less worries.
We were counting the number of weeks before term breaks for Christmas. 6 weeks to go!

come now, lets be merry.

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Nov. 2nd, 2009 | 10:52 pm

as things settle, all i want is harmony.
for eveything to set into place.
unusual to feel this surge of happiness.
i feel like iv resurfaced out of the water after a very, very long time.
i can finally breathe in my surroundings, enjoy it.
is this really how one feels, the happiness, after a long, long tiring expedition?
if so, i want this to last.

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Oct. 29th, 2009 | 08:52 am

i feel comforted by her presence. through the silent train journey, both immersed in our own thoughts. not awkward, we just understood that silence was our motive for the ride.

All thats running through my mind,all emotion conjuring my mood, all the words written on my face. i know i cant hide it.what is it though? whats eating me? is it really possible... that i cant point whats wrong. since there wasnt the beginning.

All i hear is the buzzing noises of the math facilitator.I am not in class today. physically in, mentally  o u t.

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Rediscovered

Oct. 27th, 2009 | 01:22 pm


The learning journey.
September. October.
Its like Iv been living my life out of my body. Doing things I never thought I would. Feeling things I never though I could.
The state of confusion left me stuck for a long time. Thinking and wondering why thoughts couldnt fit into emotions.
I made many decision, some executed, some not. You know when you make a decision, its nature to follow through with it. To begin and then end.

Running isnt the way. Exhaustion will eventually catch up with you.
Face up, harden up, take the risks.

After the tiresome ride Iv been on, I know what it is now to block out, what it is to put the word down, to look out for your own benefits, and how scars dont do any good. Closing the door really means another one will soon be opened. Then you decide how long you want to remain in that room. Forever, or not.

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Oct. 26th, 2009 | 11:40 am

I feel like im hovering outside my body.
Mind blocked and exhausted. it was a good weekend no doubt. Traumatic.

There are so many things to consider now, so many things to settle.
One after another; at the same time; after.

Bad dreams, haunting pasts, awakening present.

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Oct. 22nd, 2009 | 01:32 pm

I woke up today and spoke to myself. just to check if my voice was still audible.
I fell asleep last night due to the sedative effects of my drug. Claratine. However its spelt.

I now finally am starting to enjoy my day.

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Oct. 21st, 2009 | 01:53 pm

I spent most of last night trying to seep. thick blanket thin blacket, mind blank, throat hurting.
it was difficult. but when i finally fell asleep, it was so good. peaceful and dreamless.
all i remember is the 4.17am on my phone before i went off to still silence.
sadly, now as i type, im recalling my dream. haha. random, but whatever.

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Oct. 19th, 2009 | 03:37 pm

chocolates last night made my tummy a bitch today.

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Oct. 16th, 2009 | 01:23 pm


so im just gonna live my life and tonight will be good.
we will all be happy and know we have each other.
we wont be lonely because we live together.
the beauty of friendship. i love my friends.

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post an entry

Oct. 14th, 2009 | 01:01 pm

everything is so good now.
every aspect of life makes me smile.
i dont know why but theres this hollow.

i feel great now. but i cant seem to buy it.

hahahaahahahaahahahaahhahahaahahahahahahhaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

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